Epic Yani is Epic
One more year to be legal. :) Struggling to finish Computer Science at UPLB on time with her ordinary intellectual capacities. Wishing to find her job as her vocation as well. Likes to live in the moment. Loves to love and be loved as well. Fights for what she believes is right. Stubborn and moody as well. You have been warned.
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This summer, my room mates and I decided to create our own stories. These stories are fictional and the main characters are some of our favorite artists of different K-pop groups.

It was a Wattpad-like site for asian fan fictions.

So, I tried to create a story that can capture the hearts of the readers like the authors did for me. But the main point of making these kind of stories is for me to share my creativeness and maybe improve my composition skills. :)

I was having a hard time updating my stories because I feel like my story was not good enough. I was tempted to delete my story because I feel like it lacks something. It is not exciting enough and the story is quite slow. But then 2 random people commented on one of my stories and they made me want to continue my story. I would like to thank these two who commented and I will try my best to finish my story with a bang! :)

140719 The Lost Planet in Shanghai Day 2  © Sixgod | do not edit.
140719 The Lost Planet in Shanghai Day 2 
© Sixgod | do not edit.

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I don’t want this anymore. 
I don’t.

I hope what I will do will be for the better.
For the both of us.

Love one’s self before loving others.

I’m sorry.


Confused About Everything

It’s been a while since I posted something personal on my blog.

I just want to say that I’m very sorry to those people who followed me before I became a very very very hardcore K-Pop fan. I am sorry because some of my posts appear on your dashboard (even though I’m pretty sure my posts don’t but still). I’m sorry also for my friends and followers in my other social networking accounts that are not a fan of K-Pop. 

I have been hiding something really big inside of me that I can’t seem to let out. I am so confused and lost right now. One night, I told my friend that I have the habit of getting attached to small things. Okay. Attached might be an understatement. I have the habit of getting super infatuated with little things like loom bands, K-pop, and other kinds of things as well. Last night, I told my friend that I felt so devastated when I heard that Fourth (from PBB) got evicted out of Kuya’s house. I even felt more devastated when I saw Fifth’s (from PBB) reaction when his twin brother got evicted. I cried and cried at the sight I was seeing from our television. I admitted to this friend of mine that I was crying and pouring my anger out on the sofa I was sitting on and my friend texted me a message that made me feel that I am really a pathetic person.

My friend texted me: 

"YANI YOU’RE BETTER THAN THIS. SNAP OUT OF IT. makikita mo naman siya ulit eh :)) madami naman siyang fans eh :) kasama ka na dun :))"

That was the text. What really struck me out like lightning was the first sentence. YOU’RE BETTER THAN THIS. SNAP OUT OF IT. It keeps on playing and playing inside my head and I can’t help but agree. I am better than this. I know too well what are the things that will make me a great person in the future. Also, I know what are the petty little things that will crumble me to death if I kept on doing it. Kpop especially. 

Some people deal with their addiction with drugs, with alcohol and with sex. While all of them can really be dangerous to one’s self, my addiction to K-pop can destroy me as well.

But why can’t I keep away from this fucking K-pop? What made me so attached to these people? I don’t even understand what their saying! Those artists don’t even know me in person and even if I meet them at one of their fansign events in the future, I’m sure they’ll forget about me the moment they get up the day after. Why am I chasing after people who doesn’t even know me, who doesn’t even love me, and who doesn’t even know my own language? 

Some don’t even appreciate their fans. Some don’t even sing on stage. Some don’t even put their 100% on their performances.


It’s because they took a piece of my heart. Is that all? 
Yes. That’s all they took away from to make me this addicted to them. I love them very much. How they smile at their fans, how they dress when they’re at the airport, how they look when they have make-up and when they don’t have make-up, how their face move when they sing, when they laugh and when they cry, how their body moves, how long their arms and legs are, how are they different from other K-pop groups and how they are different from their members.

We, fans, notice things that are not even worth noticing in the eyes of others. To us, it makes us a little bit connected to our idols. It makes our heart complete again. This feeling in our chest becomes very tight, tight because we’re happy, contented, even. We watch shows where they are the guests of the show and they share a part of their lives with us and we’re okay with that. We’re already screaming like little girls when they receive barbies for Christmas.

When they wink, when they give the fans a flying kiss and when they do aegyo (cute little acts), that takes us to a higher level of being high with too much happiness. 

As another friend said:

It’s worse if the one you love doesn’t even love you back. But for us international fans, it’s even worse because they don’t even know us. 
Not exact words.

So yeah. What to do. Almost everything I do now is because of them. That is what makes me happy and sad at the same time.

you make me hot


Good Vibes HERE

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1.Stop posting negative sh*t about celebrities on social media. Miley Cyrus does not care what you think about her haircut, Justin Bieber does not care what you think of his tattoos and Gwyneth Paltrow couldn’t care less regarding what you think about her diet.

2. Stop resenting yourself for drunk texting your ex. Sure, its a little embarrassing, but at least you’re addressing your feelings. Not that you should aim to drink an entire bottle of rum then see what happens, but… roll with the punches.

3. Leave the country. If you don’t have money, look into doing charity work abroad. Some programs will sponsor you.

4. If you hate your job, quit your job. Repeat after me: THE MONEY IS NOT WORTH IT. Food and shelter are clutch though, so make sure you have another job lined up.

5. Stop beating yourself up for skipping the gym on days you truly didn’t have time. But also, stop skipping the gym on days you had plenty of time to go.

6. Make up — not to be confused with make out — with an ex.

7. Rid yourself of enemies. Apologize for what you did wrong and forgive those who have wronged you.

8. Rid yourself of “frenemies.” Don’t spend 2014 surrounded by people you secretly despise.

9. If you think somebody is cute, say “hi” and introduce yourself. Every relationship you have ever had started with a greeting.

10. Leave your phone number for someone. Worst-case scenario: you won’t get a call and maybe you’ll feel a tiny bit embarrassed. Regardless of the outcome, you put yourself out there and probably made the other person’s day.

11. Stop caring about how many people “like” your Instagram photos. If you like the photo enough to post it, what else matters? Social media anxiety is a waste of time.

12. Cross something off your bucket list. Sky dive, bungee jump, scuba dive, etc. Don’t make excuses as to why you can’t accomplish something, and check out

13. Stop hating yourself for eating dessert. A piece of birthday cake is a right, not a privilege.

14. Keep a journal. It doesn’t have to be something you use daily, but documenting your experiences is incredibly important. You’ll appreciate it later.

15. Strengthen relationships with family members. Blood is thicker than water.

16. Help strangers. “Pay it forward,” do good things for the world — and don’t post a Facebook status about it.

17. Conquer a fear. Personally, I fear Bikram yoga.

18. Turn off your smartphone at dinner.

19. Don’t check your Twitter feed when you’re with friends.

20. Try a fashion trend you never thought you could pull off. And, do it with confidence. Floppy hats, snap backs, Harem pants; you can do it!

21. Double-text without fear. THOU SHALL NOT BE IGNORED!

22. Shop locally, eat locally and recognize where your money is going. Consumers control the economy, so visit the mom-and-pop coffee shop down the street instead of Starbucks. Shop at boutiques rather than chains (they aren’t all expensive — trust me). Try Etsy.com instead of retail conglomerates.

23. Cry. When you’re happy and when you’re sad; embrace your emotions as they come.

24. Stop being so shallow. Next time you find yourself judging someone based on his or her appearance, imagine the person standing in front of you saying, “I’m beautiful.” You’ll start to believe it.

25. If you want someone to commit to you, vocalize it. Don’t settle for being someone’s “f*ck buddy” if that isn’t what you want. “Together” is the waiting period between “talking” and “dating”; purgatory shouldn’t last forever.

25 New Year’s Resolutions Every Person Should Actually Make for 2014, Elite Daily (via brookeyfbaby)

I love every single one of these… Perfect for 2014.

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